I proclaim:
The world is my creation!
I am a proud GOD!
And I dream of the day,
when the world is exactly as small as I created.
How far is it?
August 30, 2010
July 04, 2010
Little things that piss me off!! - Tag..
Little things that piss me off!! - Tag..
Tag??? It took a while to understand.. It took a little 'research (oh just search in my frens blogs) to understand this concept..
Some guy got this 'tag' and found it interesting... But ... he passed it on to our Miss Geetu.. n she passed it on to me..!!
1. My alarm sound..
2. seeing exactly what i dontt want to see when i look into a mirror (not finding a shirt of my size)
3. Having to attend a meeting when it is raining outside
4. Getting pissed off for having to stay in a place like that I am currently staying & still staying in the place.
5. slow loading pages..
6. My inaction despite the storms inside
7. People taking me for granted and more - me not standing up for myself
and many more..
Tag??? It took a while to understand.. It took a little 'research (oh just search in my frens blogs) to understand this concept..
Some guy got this 'tag' and found it interesting... But ... he passed it on to our Miss Geetu.. n she passed it on to me..!!
1. My alarm sound..
2. seeing exactly what i dontt want to see when i look into a mirror (not finding a shirt of my size)
3. Having to attend a meeting when it is raining outside
4. Getting pissed off for having to stay in a place like that I am currently staying & still staying in the place.
5. slow loading pages..
6. My inaction despite the storms inside
7. People taking me for granted and more - me not standing up for myself
and many more..
June 11, 2010
Awesome Mausam ... these days!
Rain! what a wonderful feeling!
Little drizzles to huge downpours.. everything is a poetic substance...designed to move hearts.
Blore skies always amaze me. Not very rarely does it start to drizzle.. and I am lost. I feel like a poetess devoid of poetry. The child in me wakes up and lulls everything else to sleep. Excitement runs thro my veins..I look at the skies and my heart soars. The grown up in me resists and looks for isolation where the child inside can be set free. My fav song plays on the back of my mind... 'Rain drops and dance..., a strange kind of romance...'
Glass attracts me and I get pulled to the windows, from my mundane desk, and I am already enchanted by what lies beyond..I yearn to breathe the damp air and smell the mud.
Where there should have been a poetess, now stands a loser wondering how she can bring forth the non-existent poetry.. in an effort to capture the ecstasy of the moment in words that last.
Little drizzles to huge downpours.. everything is a poetic substance...designed to move hearts.
Blore skies always amaze me. Not very rarely does it start to drizzle.. and I am lost. I feel like a poetess devoid of poetry. The child in me wakes up and lulls everything else to sleep. Excitement runs thro my veins..I look at the skies and my heart soars. The grown up in me resists and looks for isolation where the child inside can be set free. My fav song plays on the back of my mind... 'Rain drops and dance..., a strange kind of romance...'
Glass attracts me and I get pulled to the windows, from my mundane desk, and I am already enchanted by what lies beyond..I yearn to breathe the damp air and smell the mud.
Where there should have been a poetess, now stands a loser wondering how she can bring forth the non-existent poetry.. in an effort to capture the ecstasy of the moment in words that last.
Like a student who longs for the evening bell, I wait for that opportune moment when I can safely leave office,.. get on my bike and drench myself in the magic! I don't remember anything else thereafter.
May 16, 2010
April 14, 2010
Tears
"But love is blind, and lovers cannot see
The pretty follies that themselves commit."
(William Shakespeare, "The Merchant of Venice")
Finally.. my financial independence surpassed all my apprehensions towards expensive price tags. The color was what struck me.. It was amazing, strikingly different from all those I had! I am not sure whether it was an impulse..I had to buy!
My quick fingers already pushed the thing into my 'trial' lot,.. and a warning shot.. from inside. I unsafely ignored. I knew it was going to be my costliest buy.. I give a damn to what 'BRANDNAME' the label contained. But, it was going to empty my wallet. It did!
I looked into the mirror. Sigh! Good things already stopped fitting me :( It was very obvious. I was 'torturing' it beyond its elastic limits. And I was going to do that everyday. It only yielded. You should understand, the pleasure of wearing it was never sadistic.
And then it went, .. into the washing lot. It cried! Only, the tears were blue.
My Jeans cried Blue.
It lay alone for a long while, hanging on a rope outside, under hot scorching summer sun, and it cried until all its tears dried and there were no more tears left to come. I left it there, hoping that someday it would understand.
It looked alien and strangely unfamiliar. It looked pale, weak and detached. I was in love and it was still beautiful to me. And so,.. it had to endure the pain again and yet again. It just yielded and acquiesced to the 'enormous' deformative and distortive forces. It never actually understood, - that the pleasure of wearing it was never sadistic.
It cried out all its beauty. It BLED BLUE ... until... it became devoid of all its beauty! :(
Now what?
“Well, the tragedy is over. The failure is complete. I turn my head and go away. I took my share in this fight for the impossible.”
(Albert Camus)
Found this after googling: (wash after 30 days?!*&%$# Kill me!)
"Levi's recently introduced a line of jeans that promise control over the break-in and fading process over a very short period of time. They're called Imprint jeans and Levi's is offering the fabric as an option on their Slim Straight 514's in the US (additional cuts available overseas). Basically you wear them for as long as possible before the first wash (about 30 days) and during that time, the jeans "imprint" to your body. When you wash them in hot water they fade at an increased pace.
Once you get them looking how you want, you only wash them in cold water to prolong the look. Check out the pic above of the progression over 120 days. Priced at around $75, we think Levi's has a winner on their hands."
IMP NOTE: Read tags
(no matter how independent you are...) Price tags contain other information too. And most important information is often at the back.
The pretty follies that themselves commit."
(William Shakespeare, "The Merchant of Venice")
Finally.. my financial independence surpassed all my apprehensions towards expensive price tags. The color was what struck me.. It was amazing, strikingly different from all those I had! I am not sure whether it was an impulse..I had to buy!
My quick fingers already pushed the thing into my 'trial' lot,.. and a warning shot.. from inside. I unsafely ignored. I knew it was going to be my costliest buy.. I give a damn to what 'BRANDNAME' the label contained. But, it was going to empty my wallet. It did!
I looked into the mirror. Sigh! Good things already stopped fitting me :( It was very obvious. I was 'torturing' it beyond its elastic limits. And I was going to do that everyday. It only yielded. You should understand, the pleasure of wearing it was never sadistic.
And then it went, .. into the washing lot. It cried! Only, the tears were blue.
My Jeans cried Blue.
It lay alone for a long while, hanging on a rope outside, under hot scorching summer sun, and it cried until all its tears dried and there were no more tears left to come. I left it there, hoping that someday it would understand.
It looked alien and strangely unfamiliar. It looked pale, weak and detached. I was in love and it was still beautiful to me. And so,.. it had to endure the pain again and yet again. It just yielded and acquiesced to the 'enormous' deformative and distortive forces. It never actually understood, - that the pleasure of wearing it was never sadistic.
It cried out all its beauty. It BLED BLUE ... until... it became devoid of all its beauty! :(
Now what?
“Well, the tragedy is over. The failure is complete. I turn my head and go away. I took my share in this fight for the impossible.”
(Albert Camus)
Found this after googling: (wash after 30 days?!*&%$# Kill me!)
"Levi's recently introduced a line of jeans that promise control over the break-in and fading process over a very short period of time. They're called Imprint jeans and Levi's is offering the fabric as an option on their Slim Straight 514's in the US (additional cuts available overseas). Basically you wear them for as long as possible before the first wash (about 30 days) and during that time, the jeans "imprint" to your body. When you wash them in hot water they fade at an increased pace.
Once you get them looking how you want, you only wash them in cold water to prolong the look. Check out the pic above of the progression over 120 days. Priced at around $75, we think Levi's has a winner on their hands."
IMP NOTE: Read tags
(no matter how independent you are...) Price tags contain other information too. And most important information is often at the back.
March 31, 2010
Ms. Dreams_Lost_in_Reality
My back gets a hump:( My laptop's hard disk is 85% full now and it weighs 5 kgs heavier than when it was 85% empty! It only gets heavier day by day. At this rate it is looks like 2012 is going to be my doomsday if not the world's!
Was it so heavy when it was 'full' of movies?
PS: This work is fiction. My laptop is, in reality,...even heavier :p
Was it so heavy when it was 'full' of movies?
PS: This work is fiction. My laptop is, in reality,...even heavier :p
March 01, 2010
December 02, 2009
One night @ IIT ..... an Eight point someone story
That night- I will remember for my entire life! It wouldn't have been different frm a typical night if God hadn't decided to make that one wish come true.... Hmm.. among all those that I asked Him.. that had to be the one to be granted.!
Last semsester@IIT, few days from submission day of final thesis..
No, I didn't ask God for results, even though that was what I should have asked for! Sigh! How much I regret!... All those colourful graphs illustrating that the algo I devised is 200%-500% better than all the existing algos devised by all those nerds frm all over the world..! That was exactly what I should have asked for! That was not.
Frustration which used to sit in my head took control of my central and peripheral nervous systems. Same was the story wid the lady who stayed in the room opposite to mine.. This madam who was frm structural engineering, also happened to be the maintenance secy for the most ancient and historic monument in IIT -- our hostel which is more than 60yrs old. She was doing a project on designing some earthquake resistant structures. (Infact her neighbor's project is far more interesting.. involves collection of samples (leachate) from landfills and analyzing them. But it doesn't fall under the scope of our story. Lets discuss this later) Same situation, same story for all... no results.
@3.AM I returned from the lab to the hostel (topmost floor).. as usual.. to find something unusual. Light was still on in this lady's room and she was struggling hard to keep her eyes open, cursing everything on earth she can spell, trying to arrive at some design which can stand earthquakes. I tried to figure out what she was doing. She seemed to have put some roller skates under the building's legs (oh sorry.. pillars) so that the building only dances to the rythm of the quake and does not fall. She was simulating earthquakes on her PC and her structure was dancing always at some awkward angle. She was fighting to get those angles right. I found it amusing rather. I suppressed a laugh. He he.. she had to be our maintenance secy! She flared her nostrils in defence and argued about how the structure entirely moves with the earthquake due to the roller skates rather than bending unevenly and breaking. She later lectured abt the precision required in the design and how efficient, the design would then be! It was 3.30AM. We had no energy left in us. We were both struggling to keep our eyes open, to manage to get some performance curves (or angles.. whatever) and we were both in deep frustration. So peace had to prevail. We pitied each other and patted each other's backs.
Then it all began.. We started with cursing... everthing on earth we know. Then we were trying to figure out what to do. There was nothing that could be done. It was 4 AM and we decided to sleep. I went to my room and was hoping to wake up early.. to put in some worthless effort.. and wish for some miracles to happen. Miracles don't happen... atleast in our lives. If we were so unlucky.. so be it! I wished I had vanished frm the earth before I had to face the day.. I wished maybe some earthquake destroys the whole of IIT and I get saved frm the day... The thought was soothing. My burning eyes fought the resistance and won. It was 4.12AM
(@4.40AM roughly) Someone was banging the door. I hated that. 'Its Radhika and Neelima' .. those girls were yelling. 'Open the door! Immediately!'.
(I hate you guys) 'Pl let me sleep.. I hardly slept!'
'Come on! open the door! Now!'
'What is it? I want to sleep!'
(some internal discussion happened outside and they yelled together) 'Its XXXX's bday and we should go down and wish her.. Common fast! FAST! Just open the door!'
'(Kill me! I give a damn!) Hey pl.. I need to sleep. Will join u guys in few min'
Those girls were angry outside. 'OPEN THE DOOOR NOWWWWWW!!!'
I had to wake up and unlatch the door. Those girls pulled me out and took me down. N started..
'There was an earthquake now! Didnt you even know? We all got up frm bed. It was so severe. Mud was falling from the walls, the bed moved, everything fell off my desk. I was shocked. Didn't you even know'
'WHATT??? My sleep was then gone!'
I looked around. The entire hostel was there. Even the lady who was designing the earthquake resistant structures was there.. completely lost! .. She found everything vibrating, things falling off her cupboard.. and it took 15 minutes for her to realize it was an earthquake!. This madam who was simulating earthquakes for the last few months, apparently felt the first earthquake in her life!
N my situation... I was under heavy doses of frustration and sleeplessness. The earth and my hostel were all shaking under me and I had no clue! N that was exactly what I asked for about an hour ago! Oh my God! Did the earthquake occur in AP too? Are my parents and sister fine? I called them and checked.
Later, Radhi and neelima started describing.. the earthquake, how mud fell off frm the walls of the building and how they felt it might collapse and decided to run outside the building.. found that I was still sleeping and decided to take me along at that time! (Cant appreciate them enough) They decided not to tell me about the quake coz they thought I would panic (Did they think that it would give me a heart attack? Most likely. They don't know how earthquake resistant my sleep is :p) and decided to tell that it was a frens' bday and take me down!! I love u guys!
Most unbelievable thing was.. I wished for an earthquake at @4AM and it came true in less than an hr! I cant tell you what my reactions were. Just imagine and have a laugh!
(we later had tea and examined how earthquake non-resistant our hostel was!)
Last semsester@IIT, few days from submission day of final thesis..
No, I didn't ask God for results, even though that was what I should have asked for! Sigh! How much I regret!... All those colourful graphs illustrating that the algo I devised is 200%-500% better than all the existing algos devised by all those nerds frm all over the world..! That was exactly what I should have asked for! That was not.
Frustration which used to sit in my head took control of my central and peripheral nervous systems. Same was the story wid the lady who stayed in the room opposite to mine.. This madam who was frm structural engineering, also happened to be the maintenance secy for the most ancient and historic monument in IIT -- our hostel which is more than 60yrs old. She was doing a project on designing some earthquake resistant structures. (Infact her neighbor's project is far more interesting.. involves collection of samples (leachate) from landfills and analyzing them. But it doesn't fall under the scope of our story. Lets discuss this later) Same situation, same story for all... no results.
@3.AM I returned from the lab to the hostel (topmost floor).. as usual.. to find something unusual. Light was still on in this lady's room and she was struggling hard to keep her eyes open, cursing everything on earth she can spell, trying to arrive at some design which can stand earthquakes. I tried to figure out what she was doing. She seemed to have put some roller skates under the building's legs (oh sorry.. pillars) so that the building only dances to the rythm of the quake and does not fall. She was simulating earthquakes on her PC and her structure was dancing always at some awkward angle. She was fighting to get those angles right. I found it amusing rather. I suppressed a laugh. He he.. she had to be our maintenance secy! She flared her nostrils in defence and argued about how the structure entirely moves with the earthquake due to the roller skates rather than bending unevenly and breaking. She later lectured abt the precision required in the design and how efficient, the design would then be! It was 3.30AM. We had no energy left in us. We were both struggling to keep our eyes open, to manage to get some performance curves (or angles.. whatever) and we were both in deep frustration. So peace had to prevail. We pitied each other and patted each other's backs.
Then it all began.. We started with cursing... everthing on earth we know. Then we were trying to figure out what to do. There was nothing that could be done. It was 4 AM and we decided to sleep. I went to my room and was hoping to wake up early.. to put in some worthless effort.. and wish for some miracles to happen. Miracles don't happen... atleast in our lives. If we were so unlucky.. so be it! I wished I had vanished frm the earth before I had to face the day.. I wished maybe some earthquake destroys the whole of IIT and I get saved frm the day... The thought was soothing. My burning eyes fought the resistance and won. It was 4.12AM
(@4.40AM roughly) Someone was banging the door. I hated that. 'Its Radhika and Neelima' .. those girls were yelling. 'Open the door! Immediately!'.
(I hate you guys) 'Pl let me sleep.. I hardly slept!'
'Come on! open the door! Now!'
'What is it? I want to sleep!'
(some internal discussion happened outside and they yelled together) 'Its XXXX's bday and we should go down and wish her.. Common fast! FAST! Just open the door!'
'(Kill me! I give a damn!) Hey pl.. I need to sleep. Will join u guys in few min'
Those girls were angry outside. 'OPEN THE DOOOR NOWWWWWW!!!'
I had to wake up and unlatch the door. Those girls pulled me out and took me down. N started..
'There was an earthquake now! Didnt you even know? We all got up frm bed. It was so severe. Mud was falling from the walls, the bed moved, everything fell off my desk. I was shocked. Didn't you even know'
'WHATT??? My sleep was then gone!'
I looked around. The entire hostel was there. Even the lady who was designing the earthquake resistant structures was there.. completely lost! .. She found everything vibrating, things falling off her cupboard.. and it took 15 minutes for her to realize it was an earthquake!. This madam who was simulating earthquakes for the last few months, apparently felt the first earthquake in her life!
N my situation... I was under heavy doses of frustration and sleeplessness. The earth and my hostel were all shaking under me and I had no clue! N that was exactly what I asked for about an hour ago! Oh my God! Did the earthquake occur in AP too? Are my parents and sister fine? I called them and checked.
Later, Radhi and neelima started describing.. the earthquake, how mud fell off frm the walls of the building and how they felt it might collapse and decided to run outside the building.. found that I was still sleeping and decided to take me along at that time! (Cant appreciate them enough) They decided not to tell me about the quake coz they thought I would panic (Did they think that it would give me a heart attack? Most likely. They don't know how earthquake resistant my sleep is :p) and decided to tell that it was a frens' bday and take me down!! I love u guys!
Most unbelievable thing was.. I wished for an earthquake at @4AM and it came true in less than an hr! I cant tell you what my reactions were. Just imagine and have a laugh!
(we later had tea and examined how earthquake non-resistant our hostel was!)
September 16, 2009
and so is my blog.... ;)
My life is so empty...!
..n so is my mind
(Wait..I said 'mind', NOT brain)
Did you expect anything different in my blog??
May our gray matters rest in peace ;)
..n so is my mind
(Wait..I said 'mind', NOT brain)
Did you expect anything different in my blog??
May our gray matters rest in peace ;)